“You like the sound of a pink moon cry, lying on the floor as the day goes by; but time alone means nothing if you can’t escape the hurt you’re feeling.”

**The Paper Kites - Deep Burn Blue

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Haven puts away her phone as Ramiel enters the room with two cups of warm chamomile on his hands. “I made you tea,” he says as he hands the cup on his right hand towards Haven.

“That’s very hot of you, making me tea. Thank you,” Haven smiles as she receives the cup. However, she has battle raging on inside her head due to the conversation she just had with Gala.

Should she ask? Now, out of all time? These past fews days had been perfect, or was it just mere illusions?

Ramiel mengecek bawaannya sekali lagi sebelum dia memutuskan kalau dia sudah membawa cukup barang, dan tidak ada yang ketinggalan. “Thank you so much for helping me pack,” he says as he kisses the top of Haven’s head. “Wouldn’t be able to do this without you.”

“Di London ada kerjaan apa emangnya, Ram?” Haven tries to start it light, still unsure of how this conversation will go.

“Do you remember the last client yang aku bilang ke kamu casenya lumayan berat? Well, he’s on a medication in London and is unable to travel, sementara ada banyak banget paperwork yang musti diselesaikan. Considering I’m the only one with multiple entry visa, jadi aku yang berangkat. Kemarin ada beberapa orang dari tim berusaha apply visa juga, tapi sampe sekarang belum keluar juga resultnya.”

“Out of all places, he seeks for medication in London? That’s kinda odd.”

“I know, right? With all the resources he had he could easily afford a medication in Swiss. This case is going to be a blood bath, Ven, tapi kalau kita bisa menangin, portfolio buat kantor bakal bagus banget.”

The hardest the case, the bigger the victory. Haven knows that, but she also knows how stressful the process is. “I cannot relate to your job but I want to know… Are you happy with what you’re doing?”

“Do you mean if I like the job? Yes I do, Ven. Winning a case expands my lifetime for about five years.”

Haven tertawa. Leo, dan sifat kompetitifnya. “No, I know you like it. But are you happy?”

“Aren’t you happy when you’re doing something you like? I don’t quite understand the concept of happiness, for me it’s fleeting and unsafe to be held onto. As long as it gives me the fuel to continue living, I’d consider that I’m happy.”

Such a Ramiel answer. “Are you happy with me?”

Ramiel looks at Haven’s pair of eyes, his gaze softens as their eyes meet under the dim lights. “Of course. Why would you ask that?”

“Coz I want to know where we’re going.”

Ramiel strokes Haven’s hair as he tries to read the direction this conversation is taking. “Sayang, I’m sorry if I haven’t done enough that you still feel the need to confirm my feelings for you every single time. I realize that feelings need to be validated especially at times like this. I’m sorry.”

“Stop apologizing; it doesn’t make things better. I didn’t say any of that,” Haven replies with sad face. Ramiel smiles, his finger touches the corner of her lips as he tries to change the cursive into smiles. “I’m just saying, I will do better in the future in being more transparent with my feelings so you don’t have to second guess anything.”